will i ever get out of this?

you know how it feels when you feel like almost giving up coz everything's just becoming really really tough, not to mention very uncomfortable?

that's what am feeling right now...i know i wanted this but i can't seem to shake off the fact that i really have to go through all these just to get to where i want.

makes me think if this is still what i want or if i just really have no choice but to go after it since i've already started.

things have changed a lot...been in a situation where comfort is quite far from reach.

i ask myself, why do i always tend to go the longer way? why do i always have to get the things that i want the hard way? why do i always have to learn things the hard way?

don't i also deserve some comfort?

first day of classes for the second semester.

this is gonna be great!

i hope maging maayos ang sem na toh...sana marami akong matutunan...

i hope i've made the right decision of staying...

lead me Lord.

waaahhh!!!am really really sick!

i should have just stayed home...

am really really sick!

yes it's over...

i now promised myself to never go back to the past where i could find him.

i now promised to love myself a little bit more...more than the usual.

as a chinese saying goes: "only when you love yourself can you love all people"

the pain may, every now and then, pinch me right in my heart but i'd still think of my promise everytime this would happen.

i wanna move on already...really wanna move on.

just as i have learned in my trip: "just ride along with the waves" and "keep on climbing up the mountain", i would continue on keeping the faith so i'd be able to face all trials.

the pain will always be here, the love will always be here, but i know, by just continuing to riding along with the waves, i'd be able to handle these better...till the pain melts away, till the love passes on to someone else.

magmamahal pa rin ako.